Tuesday, February 10, 2015


We were matched with a gestational surrogate. Miracles can happen. One of the embryos created almost 9 years ago now have a heart beat.

Saturday, March 05, 2011

Adoption was hard but worth it

I wanted to let folks know that adoption for us was very tough. The way our blog reads is we just adopted. That was not the case. The paper work and home study took a long time. There was significant financial cost.

The biggest set back we had were two reversals. We were chosen, a baby was born, and the mother(s) decided to parent. The first reversal we went through was the most painful thing we ever experienced. None of the babies had made it into our home. Where we live there is a 21 day period where the birth parents can reverse their decision.

The boy we did adopt made everything else worthwhile.

Tuesday, December 07, 2010

What happened to us....?

We've had a couple of comments where people are asking what happened to us.

We adopted a beautiful boy.

I have issues with adults posting private information about children on public websites (I don't think it is right, but each to their own), so no real details other than what I just said. However, I can share a picture with you.

Friday, August 18, 2006

FET #4 on Hold

We've decided not to do a FET cycle this month for 2 reasons.

1) I'm a teacher and this year I am teaching a new grade and I am moving to a new classroom. The transfer would fall at the end of August or beginning of September when I need to be at school getting my classroom ready. My RE is one who is for 3 days of bed rest after a transfer so I really can't afford to do that at this time.

2) Paul and I need a break as well as my body needs a break! I've been pumping hormones into my body and have been poked and proded since February. I'll be able to feel as though I can live life like I did pre-IVF/FET. There will be no 2WW so I can get back to the gym this month, have a drink, not have to worry about overheating myself in the, take hot baths (which I LOVE)!

So, we will enjoy a month free of FET, ultrasounds, bloodwork, estrogen tablets, progesterone, needles in my bum, and the long dreaded 2ww. We'll get back on the FET wagon next month.

Saturday, August 12, 2006

The Plan

Well, Paul and I have done a lot of talking in the last few days and we have finally decided what our next plan of attack will be.

We have 8 frosties left. I wouldn't be able to live with myself if I didn't do anything with them. I can't bring myself to destroy them, and I really don't want them sitting there for years and years. So, we will do 4 more FET's (transferring 2 frosties each time). We figure that will take us to November/December. We have been debating whether or not to do another fresh cycle and after our many talks this week we have decided that we will not be seeking anymore treatments.

We struggled with this but we both realize, we want a baby love and raise. That is our goal. We are ready to be a mom and dad now. Adopting a baby from China will guarantee us a baby in our arms within a year or year and half. With treatment, we don't have that guarantee. When we first started fertility treatments a year ago, based on what our RE said, I was seeing myself with a baby already or at least pregnant. Our RE told us we have a 65% chance of getting pregnant on our IVF/ICSI #1. He never once talked about hyper stimulation (well he said, he wouldn't go over that because it only happens in 2% of women...lucky me, I got it!), cancelled cycles, reduced success rates with FET's. This past year of treatments have been emotionally, physically, and financially draining for us. I don't know how much more we can take of that.

As I mentioned in my last post, we have been really talking about the international adoption route and we have come to the decision to adopt a baby China. After researching adoptions from China and reading blogs and websites of couples who journeyed to China to bring their baby home, we knew this was what we wanted to do. It was quite the sight the other day; we were both sitting in front of the computer, with tears streaming down our faces, watching home videos of couples getting their baby for the first time. Before watching those videos, we wondered if we would be able to love and bond with a baby that wasn't biologically ours. Watching those videos confirmed for us, without a single doubt in our minds, we would be able to love that baby. Just like I would bond with a baby in my uterus for nine months, I am going to be bonding with our baby that is halfway around the world for 12 - 18 months before we meet it. We will bond with our baby each time we send off another piece of paperwork to the agency, we will bond when we find out our dossier has been received by the agency in China. We will bond when we get the referral, we will bond when we see the first pictures of our baby and read about her. We will bond when we are setting up the baby's room. We will bond each time we buy a piece of clothing or toy for her. The moment when they place our baby in our arms for the first time, will be like a mom seeing and holding her biological child for the first time.

People have asked us what we would do if we get pregnant from one of our FET cycles. Well, if we are lucky to have one of our frosties implant and stick around for 9 months we will be overjoyed and be truly blessed. Our little China Baby will have a sibling! We know we want 2 children; it will just be a bit sooner than planned!

I can't tell you how excited we both are about this whole process. After making the decision it felt as if a weight has been lifted off my shoulders. All the worrying and fretting about when and if treatment is going to work has been erased. I know, with 100% assurance, I'm going to be a mom and Paul is going to be a dad.

Wednesday, August 09, 2006

Third time isn't a charm

We got another negative today.

I was kind of expecting it be negative as I didn't have any symptoms. We are disappointed but we will continue to try for as long as our finacial resources and emotions will let us.

On the adoption front, we are continuing to work through all the paperwork. I think now that we have started the adoption process we can see a light at the end of the tunnel. We are both starting to come to terms with the realization that all of these fertility treatments may not be in the cards for us and are actually becoming excited about the adoption process. We are leaning towards adopting a baby internationally. We've been doing some research and attended a seminar last week and we are pretty sure, if we do adopt internationally, it will be from China .

In the end, one way or another, a child will join our family someday.

Friday, July 28, 2006

Transfer #3

On Wednesday we transferred 3 embryos. All 3 embryos survived the thaw really well according to Dr. C.

While we were waiting to go into the procedure room, there was one other woman in before us. Dr. C has a very loud voice so you could pretty much hear everything going on in there. My heart sank when I heard him say to her, "One of your embryos died. It didn't make it through the thaw". Luckily, she had more than 2 left so they were able to thaw another one for her. So, I said a little prayer to the thawing Gods and hoped our frosties had made it. Someone up there listened! I've been taking it easy for the last 3 days as per doctor’s orders. Beta is set for Aug. 9.

I think we've mentioned our doctor likes to joke around in the procedure room. His comment this time just after he released the embryos into me, "If you get pregnant with triplets, I'll shoot you!" How ironic would that be!